InsomniaWriter

Honey drips from my mouth, an endless cascade of gold sickly sweet and clingy viscous, gluing my lips together in a delicious wall of sugary words and silence. Pry it free from sticky amber, let the bitterness flow instead like angry bees exiting their hive. Stingers made not of poison nor vicious intent meant to harm, but of brutal honesty.

i’m just a confused little girl who has never been in love who has never known how to care for others but myself but here i am, phone in hand staring at my screen like all the answers are there waiting for your reply the wait can seem long, foolish but every response sends a thrill - an electric shock to my heart sends warmth through my bones and thinking of you brightens my seemingly pointless day with your too small smile and knowing gaze your excitable energy and quiet voice is this love? or am i just a fool? a fool who has fallen completely for your unattainable thoughts and your hidden scars and pains i’m not sure anymor

honey eyes and saccharine smiles -- flecked with secrets i'll never know creased with laughter from long ago -- they greet me every morning and turn my bones into glittering stardust alive with the need to explore those freckled constellations and luring me into sweet temptation to wander into the galaxy behind her eyes

a dance for two just me and you back and forth back and forth between bodies singing along to the same song music flows music flows between hearts a sweet melody sets us free out of time out of time between souls a real connection of pure affection between bodies between hearts between souls between us

tucked in my pocket hidden in the sleeve lies the key to my heart that you must retrieve the secrets i hold close i never let out of sight you want me to show and for you, i might but first you must promise give me your word that what you find what you have heard you don't judge me for for the feelings i hold not for any other parts that you may behold the happy memories or the unhappy and upset the hateful spite and the guilty regrets and most of all the biggest secret i kept the subject for which i am too inept my feelings for you the secret you never knew the feelings you'll never return are kept there too or close it once more igno

i've never been good with crushes never been good with not getting attached to those i like because when i fall for someone i leap into a bottomless pit of happiness and sadness entertwined and when those feelings aren't returned then where does this, this useless crush, leave me? nowhere. i am left with nothing to catch me as i free fall into pain a pain i hoped would never happen, but i knew what was coming when i lept i knew the risk i took but still, it just hurts so damn much because i've fallen for you and i don't know how to stop so i keep fallin' til i reach the end

looking into her brown eyes, i am reminded of the hot chocolate i drink during those chilly days, as winds whip around me in a maelstrom of biting cold; her warmth flows through my body, dethawing the frozen heart i've kept covered in ice for so long

soft brown hair falls down her back as she swings; back and forth, back and forth. the metal chain creaks beneath her weight higher and higher she flies above me, while i can only watch in amazement. she laughs, tells me to stop staring and start swinging too, but I can only see her; her and the sun that shines bright behind her illuminating her figure in the sky like a bird: beautiful and luminescent, gliding on clouds humming sweetly and soaring freely and even as i lay here, eyes closed and heart slow, i can still see her silhouette flying, pink lips grinning wide, ochre eyes twinkling and for a little while i let myself grin too

the days are long and full with skies of gray yet the smile you wear keeps the clouds at bay though this may come as a common cliche you are beautiful in every single way hold my hands in yours, tell me what you feel let me understand the you that you want to hide give me a piece of yourself, something real tell me what you love, all your joys and pride days spent making you happy are never a waste time with you is a gift I hold close to my heart with every touch, my stomach seems to have misplaced all the butterflies, as they fly high and depart you draw me in 'til I know nothing but your grin your lips, your voice, your name, and everyth

Look away with those guiltless eyes Whisper to me your most beautiful lies To have and to hold when I'm under the stars Beneath a sky that would always be ours Give me the hope to carry on this feeling Lend me the strength to stop concealing Because I just can't do this on my own Holding up our world when I'm all alone